Now you're feeling more and more frustrated, And you're getting all kinds of impatient (8)

I thank my lucky stars that I have friends.

My friends have really been helping me through some super tough times lately. In ways they couldn't every know.
Right now I'm hurting a lot inside, but somehow when I'm with my friends, I forget about the pain and everything seems alright again. It feels nice to be able to have a release like that.
I know that someday soon I won't hurt so much and I'll heal, but it's a hard road so far. I hope every day that he's doing ok and I pray that one day we'll be good friends again. I feel so confused at what I can and can't do, but I just keep on surviving each day. One step at a time.

For those of you who know what I'm talking about, thanks for talking to me. Talking is my prefered drug. My morphine drip. Every time I feel pain, I talk and I feel better. Let's just say, I've never been sober ;)

Ok, terrible analogy, but it works. (PS if you ever want to help me and don't know how, just talk to me. that'll help a TON.)

So thank you my dear friends. I love very much and ya'll mean a lot to me.

I hope so see most of you at my BBQ I'm having on Saturday. It'll be fun :)