The title is self explanitory. :)
Today was a terribly LONG day. I'm trying to get a handle on life and my emotions are seriously controlling me like no other.
I fell asleep around two this morning and woke up at five. What the random?
So, I went running. (It felt like a hundred miles and I felt really sick after.) I went to Plymouth.
Remembering.
Its so hard for me to embrace change. I like to lash out at it and tell it what I think. It depresses me into submission. I fight it but at long last, I accept it.
Right now I'm in the kicking and screaming stage. I've worked myself up so much that my immune system gave up on me. I'm sick. Gross.
I'm pretty sure I've lost six pounds over the last week. Gross.
I'm prolly about to shrivel up and die. Which would actually be a relief because I'm way too stressed as it is.
Moral of the story is that I wish I could relax. I need to accept the huge changes that are happening to me. I never thought it'd be this hard though...
I dunno how much more I can handle.
Life, please be gentle to me.
I'm so numb right now.
If only I don't bend and break, I'll meet you on the other side.
If only I don't suffocate, I'll meet you in the morning...
I know I'll be ok soon.
But I'm a little impatient.
Can't soon come like, now?
1 comment:
Molly, :) I just love you. Thanks for playing guitars with me today. We should totally do it again...soon. haha, you're the best. Have a great day.
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