I don't want to be old. I don't want to deal with things I have to now...
I don't want to think anymore. I don't want to feel anymore.
I just want to relax, have no thoughts and sit.
I want the days back where al l I had was my music and my two best friends.
Rocking out to music, discussing the cutest boys, the best movies.
Our only concerns were getting A's and what we are going to wear to school.
Innocence.
Uncomplicated.
Boys mess you up.
haha. I love Sunday School.
Its not that there is anything bad happening to me, I'm just always stressed or emotionally unstable.
Thats no good.
Today for the first time in a very long time I let loose.
I hung out with friends for no reason. No objective but to have fun.
No one I was trying to impress, I just was myself.
It felt so good.
Even though I feel sick from the Cup of Life. It was amazing.
This weekend is great.
Time for me to unwind and NOT CARE!!!!
I'm sick of caring.
Its a horrible thing to say but so true.
I can't do this.
I have too much going on.
March is going to be INSANE.
So please, just be my friend.
I miss hanging out with all my friends.
Especially the guys.
I miss all my guy friends.
I need you now.
2 comments:
The Cup of Life was amazing! I think I know how you feel, Molly... I've been so stressed out about... well, everything, lately. The future... graduating next year *freaks out*, college and all this "grown up" stuff, and... I know I'm as guilty as anyone of thinking too much about the past and wishing for it back. Things were so much simpler back then. I don't really know what to say, except... well, I guess even though it doesn't always seem like it, I think everybody has worries like this, and days like this. I, for one, am amazed when I find out that other people have the same kinds of problems that I do. It always seems like they hide them so well. And maybe I just suck at hiding my true feelings, but... we all have them. You're not alone :) I particularly agree with when you said "Boys mess you up." Except it's girls in my case. That was the start of all the bad stuff, when I started liking this girl. Things are never easy again after that... *sigh*
i know how you feel, i have been so busy with everything and it's so stressful.
it's a rare thing when i have time to just hang out with friends.
and... it's true...
boys mess you up.
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